"Status Quo"

Merriam Webster and Wikipedia define Status Quo as “the current or existing state of affairs.” Its literal translation from Latin is “state in which”. In either case I define it as something that almost killed me. Don’t worry, I’m not going to start off all heavy and emotional and tell you the tragic stories of my life or, as my Pastor would say my “litany of despair”, I’m just going to explain the reason I’m here. The old “Status Quo” of my life was what I thought would lead me to success. I played the role of a straight “A” student, found a great after school job which turned into a fulltime job upon graduating from High School. I worked while in college pursuing my degree, eventually graduated with a BBA in Human Resources Mgt, Accounting and a minor in English and then fell in line with corporate America. I leased my first vehicle and was walking the walk and talking the talk but no one knew what was really going on, not even me.

Underneath all of that success, money and status was a soul that was shattered to pieces. It had been this way for as far back as I could recall and up until very recently that was only back to age 19. Don’t get me wrong, I remembered being a kid but most things were conveniently displaced, what I now understand as “Disassociation”. See, I was doing all the things I thought I was supposed to do and nowhere near what I wanted to do. No one told me I could be whatever I wanted so I did all the things I was good at, I excelled and built upon my assets but never bothered to believe in my dreams. Well I’m 38 now and just found out that it’s not too late to dream nor is it too late to change things. I have time to write now because façade cracked and the shattered soul has been exposed. I’ve heard so many people say “go with the flow” or “just fit in and do what everyone else is doing” but all along I could feel that that was never for me or anyone for that matter. I’ve learned that we are all unique and remarkable in our own personal ways. This is something I would have never accepted ten years ago. That is how I came up with “Status Quo” as the first part of this adventure. This is where I’m coming from and am going to find out where I’m going, "Quo Vadis?"

“What happened in the past that was painful has a great deal to do with what we are today…”-William Glasser